This month I have started a new part time job; my mother has begun watching Rose two days per week; and I have begun weaning Rose. My head feels like it will explode! I keep reaching out to grasp something to hold steady, but the bubble I have been living in tilts and I can't grab on. The kids have taken it much better than I have.
That said...I will get my first paycheck in two years on Friday, and that's pretty ok. Rose is beginning to warm up to my mother, and that's wonderful. And I have had the occasion to wear something other than a tank top and ripped jeans, which is kind of liberating!
I don't know how long I'll last in this job, but that's ok. I don't know how long my Mom can handle my little flower child; and I just don't know if it is a good time to wean her. But by making all these changes anyway, I feel like I'm de-sensitizing myself to them. Take that, Kryptonite, take that.